“Who has made man’s mouth? Who makes him mute, or deaf, or seeing, or blind? Is it not I, the Lord?” – Exodus 4:11
While there are still times that these questions surface in my mind, I realized something that has taken away their power to haunt me. There are no “What ifs.”
I’ve heard a lot of people say that God “allows” bad things to happen. I unequivocally disagree. The God I know from Scripture is all-powerful and in full control of all things at all times. “Not one [sparrow] will fall to the ground apart from your Father. Even the hairs of your head are all numbered.” (Matthew 10:29-30) The God I know is a details God – a divine micro-manager. He does not passively sit back “allowing” things to happen. There was not a moment that He lost His grip on the universe. No, God did not allow Luke’s autism. He designed it.
Autism has been a part of God’s plan for my family all along – since before the foundation of the world this has been His grand design. It was unavoidable. There never was a Plan B.
I don’t know His purpose, but I do know that He is loving and that everything He does is perfect. So while I can’t always understand His plan, I can choose (though sometimes it may be through gritted-teeth and a clenched-fisted act of the will) to believe that it is a good thing.